Today it hit me. Yesterday was my last day of normal with my kids. They are off to grandparent visits until Aug. 15, and the next day we all start official school.
Gosh, all of a sudden I just feel a little sad and sorry that the summer is ending, in spite of the fact that I am as excited as hell to move to this next phase.
My kids aren't even babies - the youngest is seven and the oldest became a teenager this year. But they are my babies.
Even today doesn't count as normal because get this - the kids' dad bought the birthday party gifts.
If you don't have kids you are totally lost now, I am sure.
Usually, there is one parent who does these things, I think. And most often it is the mom, just because more often moms are the ones who handle kiddy social schedules.
Today I lost that job, apparently.
The kids' dad is now the social chairman of the kids, and as such, he told me I needed to get my hands off that wheel sooner rather than later, so he could get the hang of it. At the time I was just glad to have the task not on my plate today. But then it hit me.
I am the mommy but I am not the main parent now.
So I feel just a little sad today. Call it melancholy, a little bit of the drama queen, PMS, derangement, whatever.
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Things to come in '08 and beyond
- Friends - past and present and future - to share it with
- six minute miles
- A Killers concert
- more time with four great kids
- the Bar (hmm, and after the Bar, the bar?)
- more tears, more laughs, more flirting and more chaos
- lots more charity runs
- skydiving
- Africa
- Mount Kilamanjaro
- Greece and Italy
- Triathalon
- A job....
Things I have done in my life
- voted for Clinton (Bill), Bush (junior) and Nader(the only)
- flirted to get a free drink, to get out of a ticket and to distract someone
- ran from the Bay to the Breakers
- got married in Vegas
- learned that I don't know much
- Europe
- cried honest tears over someone else's pain
- raised four fine kids
- started a nonprofit
- the marathon
3 comments:
I hear you! My husband took over the bills earlier this summer. The days of spending with no checks and balances are over...but that is probably a good thing.
My husband is the sole owner of the school supply lists, chore lists, the trumpet rental contract, the signup form for soccer and even two birthday party invitations. I don't even know where these papers are residing, which is super strange given I used to pride myself on household managament.
They say all change is loss so I plan on taking tomorrow to grieve a little and maybe even shed a tear for the 12 years that I have spent in full-throttle motherhood. On second, thought maybe I (we) need a glass of wine too..
Wow, I am so impressed that your husband is not only willing to step into such a role, but actually understands the need to do it well! I'm sure it's a tough transition for all of you, but it will be so rewarding!
Just found your blog - I love it!
I'm also a "non-traditional" student (I really hate that term).
No kids yet - but married - undergrad a long time ago!
I took the LSAT last December also. Orientation starts for me August 13th - Yikes! You are so prepared. Time has flown by too fast - I can't believe it's here already.
I look forward to reading more of your Blog!
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