Fall is a good time to turn over a new, slightly tarnished, leaf

I was thinking today. Maybe what I really need to do is buckle down and get back to that schedule I made before school started. I had all these grand ideas. Most of them fell to my own stupid need to make friends, eat out, keep my house clean, and so forth.

Perhaps part of why I am feeling so blah and out of sorts is because I had this grand plan and I just completely abandoned it without even trying.

So today, I was thinking. Yea, I know, I said that already. But it bears repeating as I have been way more doing and way less thinking that I should have been in the last few weeks.

What if I tried to stick to a schedule? Like, an honest to God, work and play schedule? Not too legalistic (haha) but at least a rough estimate of when I was going to study (in the library or my office). Also, perhaps more key for me, when I am going to spend time with friends, old and new; and when I am going to allow myself to eat out; and when (and where) I will exercise.

These are the key things that are not being handled correctly right now. The homelife is going very well and my family stuff is ticking over beautifully, but my personal management is not so much. I need to be more careful about eating (feel like I spend too much and eat too much an awful lot, interspersed with times when I barely eat or care), and in the same vein with exercising (I haven't missed a day due to school, but I need to mix it up a bit and do some mind-body stuff like yoga just because I really like that crap).

Those two things are probably more about having some clear idea of my plan each week. More pressingly about my own lack of willpower: time in the library/office studying and time socializing. The two have been overlapping and really making me less focused than I should be in both areas. Several friends have had babies or crises which I have felt like I needed to give attention to, but I'm thinking maybe it is time to cut that way down. Even if it hurts for a bit. And my library study time has been crashed into by well meaning fellow 1Ls and my own inability to say "I need to study."

Bad 1L. Bad, bad, bad.

Time to get back to today's scheduled study time!